Tha Block Is Hot!!

Had a loooong week. Was suppose to do a show this last friday, but I decided to do a concert up in Northern Nevada instead. A Christian Concert. AKA free. My Patna earned all $600 from the show (which is a lot for a college student).

BUT I did a lot of networking on behalf of the band and it looks like we're going to on the road for a few more years. Which is good. We could be the next David Crowder Band Yo!!! haha

So something weird happened. I texted a girl, she didn't text back, and I'm actually trippin over that. I swear, I'm changing. But, there's a fine line between "gentleman" and "wussy". It's good I'm only fuckin with one lady, but I can't be a wuss over her. I better get my ass in gear!

Last but not least. After a long day today... I came back home, got pulled over by SWAT. Got questioned with shotguns in my face. Cop cars everywhere, armoured vehicles in every corner. This must be why the rent is so cheap. haha. But ay, you know a neighborhood bad when cops won't even go in there, so it's cool.
Guess I'll find out what happened in the morning news.

Goodnight!!

KEORA IS DOPE

I miss Oahu :[[[

Unarmed but unharmed

My crib is almost back to normal, damage is done though. Why can't they just find out who breakin in my crib?? That's what I don't like about this hood, they don't snitch no matter WHAT! haha..

So about this fob girl. She was all over me the other day. I was making her tingle n twitch and I aint even touch her hot spots yet. But one things been botherin me: We don't speak the same language.
I can't use my usual weapons on her. I can't talk to her deeply. I can't make her laugh like I want, can't tease her like I want, can't get to know her like I want. One day the touching is gon get old because of that. Being physically seduced is one thing, but being mentally and emotionally seduced is another. I feel like I'm "unarmed", like I can't use my macking weapons on her.. but it still feels all good right now. We still find ways to have a good time. If it's gettin freaky at the club or gettin close on the couch. So I'm still feelin "unharmed".

Idk fellas, I think I'm starting to change. I can't call myself CaptainCupid anymore. Hahaha. It's been a fun run while it lasted. Just call me Eric now.

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Hmmm, let's see let's see

She just woke up from my bed and just got home..

I guess I swept her off her feet, but I think she swept me off mine too.
So I can't believe this girl fell for me. She has a perfect body and a cute face. She's cool, funny, and really fun to be around. She helps me with homework and has good manners. She loves working out and music, which is the only two things I do anymore, haha. And she's a virgin. Usually only girls that like to fuck or that have an asian fetish will fall for me, but this girl is real. I hope she is anyway.

But, I've been fucking around with girls and juggling for so long... i'm not sure if I remember how to just be with one girl. After I dropped her off, my natural instinct was to get at a booty call. But I stopped myself, I guess that's a start... lol
I'm really trying to change my ass, if not for her then for myself. I hope she's got the same commitment. She likes to touch me a lot, so I'm hoping she doesn't just like my body or something, haha.

Why the fuck is this nonsense in "thoughts of a hip hop head"?? I'm sorry guys. I have one follower anyway, so whatever.

God bless

One Love.

Death of a player, pt 2

I'm usually the guy who needs to sleep eight hours or somethin to feel fresh.

I woke up abruptly at four hours.. and just thought of her. Ugh. This aint right! This is the makings of a heartbreak... I guess it's about time, lol, It's time for the "heartbreaker" to know what it feels like to get whipped.

Anyway, she wanted to kick it again today after church. So we'll see what happens. I'm REALLY worried about my Berklee Online Courses! I fell behind cause I was on tour, and now i got 12 hours of hw to do.. and today is the last day to turn everything in yo!! Time to put some passion on the side and get on my hustle.

HUSTLE HARDER

Death of a player

If there's anything all my years of fucking around with girls can do me, it's this. The little wisdom I've learned of macking and romancing, I'm gonna put it all to use one final time. I'm gonna make sure this is the last and only girl I romance, ya feel me?

I'm not gonna juggle anymore! I'm a one girl man now. Hahaha, this is probly the corniest post, but it just goes to show that everyone in life settles down sooner or later.

Praise God

One Love

Gender, does it matter in this case?

I took a look at my circle of friends. I'm not talking partnas, or homies.. I'm talking about FRIENDS. I realized they are ALL female.. I got Merk who teaches me to cook that mexican food in exchange for telling her about "true-school hip hop". I got Eggie who I talk to all night until one of us falls asleep (which is always her!). I got Gracie who makes sure I'm always smilin. I got Walker who is the only person who can school me in music. Jin who is trying to hard to make things right with us. I got Jo Bunny, LT, Merissa, Sara, Steph, etc. Shit i got this new cat, my Pillsbury Do Girl, who doesnt live here but she's tryna give me all her money so I can pay for school??

Do my "boys" do shit for me.. nah. This could be a reflection on my personality and attitude, or maybe a reflection of the men I choose to surround myself with, but ... idk man. A man gets lonely sometimes lol. He needs another dude thatll ride wit him.

Ladies, I love yall. But, i need a dude!!(no homo). Or one of yall better start playing Madden with me!! hahaha

On the shiny side of the penny, theres some news... Keeping posotive and praying is worth it. My broke ass got a random call from a random sweepstakes, I got 5G's in cash! AND maybe a meeting with the Production Manager of Capitol Records. I've got a garunteed job after I get myself graduated, film audio post-production. Things are looking up. There'll be bumps and bruises and broken bones in my future, but FUCK MAN

i GOT a future now!!!!

Praise the Lord. And pray I watch my swearing.

One Love

Promise to myself

1. Keep studying harder and harder.
2. Make it to class every damn morning, even if it means a 2 hour sleep.
3. Work out 7 days a week, get back into olympic lifting.
4. Start training again, get into some fights.
5. Pray everyday.
6. Do NOT date unless that girl is special to me. Fling as long as she knows what's up.. no fuck that, no more flings....okay flings.
7. Start the "lair" in Reno.
8. Kill all the whack shit around me, stay hip hop, stay business. Don't forget my struggle.
9. Learn Korean.
10. Evict my inner wussy.

Chopp Shop Productions

Brand new game in the NV area.. I hope they're legit. I hope they got my email. I hope they like my resume.

Thsi is my last hope, for real.. Pray for me.

I'm gonna make this thing work out eventually

I was gonna blog about a brand new girl in church today. Top 10 hottest I've ever seen, including celebrities. I was gonna write about our cute little subtleties today.

Until I came to my reality.

I have no money to do anymore albums, nor the resume to start charging up a storm. I'm getting asked for gigs, but don't have the money to fix my turntables or buy new needles. I can't pay for rent again, cause I got broken into and robbed and I have to pay for damages with the last drip drops of my wallet. And I need $1100 in 20 hours, or else I'm dropped out of school...

..But I'm gonna make it. I'm the guy who graduated high school living in his car! Eating at soup kitchens! Showering at school! With no trace of my parents, and my friends dropping out my depressing-ass presence.. I'm still here. I made it as a broke as gook once. I gotta find that strength again.
I'm still here now. I'll still be here tomorrow. Yall haven't seen the end of me yet!

My reality is about to set in

Speak of the devil (previous post). She just sent me a text out of nowhere. Yal know what I'm talking about, that random ex gf/bf text. She was talking about how she needs to get something off her chest, that she finally forgives me for what I did to her, though, she still doesn't wanna be friends.
When we were talking, it felt like old times. I had to cut it off, cause we were getting too friendly. It was just mad awkward, especially after the "other" girl was just at my crib...

Am I a player?
Do I still like her?
ugh

The ups and downs of a day

After a long day today, I was thinking back a couple months.. back when I had a certain girl.
I was thinkin, "man, i had a good girl. I had a 10/10 babe that was trying to change herself for me.." I was beginning to regret losing her. Maybe I AM a heartbreaker.. haha

I got in the elevator thinking, "why am i even thinkin about this." When two big boned, iced out, african americans with thick hiphop accents came into the elevator wit me. Here's what went down:
First guy: Oh my phone was ringing, didnt even know.
Second guy: Yeah, can't hear nuttn wit all dis noise.
First guy: (shuffles through pocket and looks at phone) it was you man, haha
Second guy: what?
First guy: YOU called me?
Second guy: yeeea.. like 20 minutes ago. What kinda phone ya got there.
First guy: hehe(puts phone back in pocket)
Second guy: You got that delayed shit (tone getting serious)
First guy: haha
Second guy: Dam doo, what if it was an emergency?! (elevator opens and they walk out)
First guy: (tries to talk but is cut off)
Second guy: I COULD BE DEAD BY NOW!!!


Pahahahaha. And I am officially laughing and cheered up again.